December 31, 2022

Best of 2022 Film and Music


2022 was an interesting year for film and music. Despite having more opportunities available to me than ever to see new movies now that I've made Chicago my home, I struggled to find many new films that I could really get behind as my favorites. Meanwhile, despite a once-favorite band succumbing to a #MeToo era scandal (RIP Arcade Fire), great albums seemed to roll in consistently throughout the year, many from artists I previously had not followed closely. With 2023 getting ready to be rung in as I finish this post, the following are the five new films and new albums that stood out most to me as my favorites from the last year. 


 Best New Film


5. Apollo 10 1⁄2: A Space Age Childhood

At first glance, Richard Linklater's semi-autobiographical animated film about a boy's experience living in Houston during the events of the Apollo 11 moon landing may seem like little more than an indulgent montage of nostalgia-filled memories and day dreams. But, like many of Linklater's films, there's something richly resonant and philosophical lying beneath the meandering plot that only makes itself clear at the end of the film. In this case, it's an illumination of how we remember important historical events, both in terms of how the cultural impacts permeates our everyday lives and how we're made to feel like we're part of something much larger than ourselves.

4. Nope

In a time when sequels, prequels, and reboots still top the box office, Jordan Peele created an original summer blockbuster in the way only Jordan Peele could. Tense, wildly imaginative, and darkly funny, Nope tells of a brother and sister duo from a family of Black ranchers who try to capture footage of a UFO after their father is mysteriously killed from a random object that falls from the sky. There's something deeper there too, about humans' desire to tame and exploit other beings and the erasure of Black contributions to the history of cinema. It's a film of spectacle of the highest order, but importantly one with originality and substance.

3. Aftersun

Aftersun feels a bit like watching raw home video clips from a vacation taken by a family you've never met. You're left wandering who these people are when they're not trying to escape their everyday lives and what's underlying the unusual sense of unease that seems to surface in the quieter moments when they're not engaging in corny tourist activities. But in this drama about an eleven-year old girl who goes on a summer holiday in Turkey with her loving but troubled father, the small details that are given to you through richly captured moments of intimacy are so carefully and tenderly wrought that for a brief time you are transported into the father and daughter's universe in all its emotional complexity.       

2. Everything Everywhere All at Once

The most aptly-titled film of the year, Everything Everywhere All at Once is a spellbinding trip across the multiverse that blends a host of genres including existentialist science fiction, absurdist comedy, family drama, and martial arts. You might expect nothing less from a story as wacky and layered as one about a Chinese-American laundromat owner experiencing a mid-life crisis who finds that she must jump between parallel versions of her life to save the multiverse and repair her relationships with her family members. Yet somehow the film combines its disparate elements to stick a deft landing as both a totally unique vision and a movie with as much heart as it has ambition.  

1. The Territory

The deforestation of the Amazon Rainforest and its impacts on Indigenous Peoples is a necessary and urgent topic for a film by any standard. But The Territory, chronicling the fight of the forest-dwelling Uru-eu-wau-wau people to protect their lands from development by illegal settlers, goes beyond a traditional advocacy documentary by immersing the viewer within the impacted community through direct, observational filmmaking, including footage shot by the Uru-eu-wau-wau themselves when they closed their territory off to outsiders during the early days of the pandemic. The result is a powerful and often tense portrait that makes clear the precarity of an ecosystem and people under constant threat of encroachment. Yet, the spirit of the determined Uru-eu-wau-wau people ultimately shines through as they find ways to innovate and creatively resist, using surveillance technology to document illegal activity and carrying out arrests of trespassers on their land. It's a small but inspiring win in an ongoing war that's heavily stacked against Indigenous Peoples and the lands they steward throughout the world.


Best New Album


5. Will of the People - Muse

Described by frontman Matt Bellamy as a "greatest hits album – of new songs," Will of the People features the best of the veteran band's variations on its signature grandiose alternative rock sound. It also contains some of the bands most pointed political material thus far to reflect the turbulent times. Simultaneously a call for revolution and a recognition of the inevitability of social and ecological collapse, Will of the People presents dystopia with stark immediacy – but somehow also with a fair dose of humor and fun.

4. Spirituals - Santigold

As the title suggests, Santigold's Spirituals draws upon centuries of African American struggle to create songs of human resilience for the current era. Addressing hardships both personal and political, the artist found salvation crafting these songs during the pandemic when much around her felt dark. The album fuses an eclectic variety of genres to create an ominous but enlivened tone, eventually building towards a rousing three song conclusion that reaffirms the power of hope and engaging in collective struggle.   

3. Renaissance - Beyoncé

A true summer blockbuster album, Beyoncé's Renaissance saw the artist continue to evolve musically while solidifying her status as a cultural icon. The album is structured like a DJ set with seamless transitions between tracks and boasts an impressive array of direct references, samples, and influences from the history of Black and queer dance music. Yet the sharp production and Beyoncé's modern interpretation of her inspirations give a feel of the future of popular music. But Renaissance's greatest asset may be the pure exuberance and unabashed self-confidence exuded by Beyoncé through her music and lyrics, a welcome relief coming out of two plus years of pandemic-fueled dark times.

2. American Gurl - Kilo Kish

Kilo Kish frames her experimental pop concept album American Gurl as a cheap arcade game, suggesting her status as an artist is as a commercialized enigma that people play and then abandon for their next entertainment. The rest of the album finds her trying to reveal the human beneath the consumer-oriented zeal of the modern musician, overworked and struggling with the expectations of being a Black woman artist. Though satirical and at times cynical, Kish also finds liberation in naming the difficulties of navigating the current system and unapologetically expressing her desire to be herself in spite of it all.  

1. Dragon New Warm Mountain I Believe in You - Big Thief

Promoted as "a sprawling double-LP exploring the deepest elements and possibilities of Big Thief," Dragon New Warm Mountain I Believe in You is the sound of a band at the top of its game, experimenting with a variety of styles with a newfound sense of fun and creative drive. But Adrianne Lenker maintains her deft, spiritually probing lyricism, finding meaning and magic in everyday happenings and natural phenomena. Notably, the album grapples with the fleeting nature of life, from small moments passing by, to relationships ending, to the ephemerality of human existence itself. On the opening track, "Change," Lenker poses the question "Would you live forever, never die/While everything around passes?" She eventually resolves on the exuberant closing track, "Blue Lightning," to accept change but live each moment to the fullest, singing, "I wanna live forever 'til I die." Fitting for a band that's willing to change its style on a dime, but sounds fully alive and present on each recording, always giving everything to their craft. 

August 18, 2022

On Demand Dating: Short Stories About Modern Dating


Since this January, I have been working on a new year-long writing project exploring modern dating in my new home of Chicago. Tentatively titled Last Date, the concept involves interviewing random people on Tinder about the last date they went on and editing the responses into a series of first person narratives about people’s dating experiences. Interestingly, many of the dating stories I’ve collected so far have been about bad dates or connections with people that didn’t amount to much. Interesting, but probably not surprising, since casual dating apps like Tinder are not typically known for their perfect love stories. In addition to the frustration of putting in time and sometimes money only to match with dozens of people who ultimately ignore you, these platforms are known to have problems with sexual harassment and assault. However, dating apps have become the norm for how many people date and how relationships often begin. 

This new project has inspired me to dabble in some fiction writing, exploring the pitfalls of modern dating. This has resulted in the two short stories you will find here. The first, "Short Term," is an exercise in concise story telling that taps into the fleetingness of connections made in modern dating culture. The second, "On Demand Date," explores the dangers that arise when love and human connection become commodified and sold as a product. Though the dating app in this story is fictional and meant to be a satirical amalgamation of existing dating apps, the app Clover has a real on demand dating feature where users can find others near them looking to meet in person and schedule a date directly through the app. A free version of Clover allows users to browse and match with people. However, to send a message or use the on demand dating feature, a Premium subscription is required with pricing starting at $9.99 per week.




Short Term

The frigid winter breeze nipped at her nose and cheeks as she walked to catch her train. As she made her way along the platform, her eyes drifted towards other people about her age. She often liked to pretend she was swiping through people on a dating app as she passed them in the crowds during her morning commute.


Today she was looking for something short-term. Something brief, exciting, and without commitment, but that would leave her wanting more.


Minutes later, she was entering the Red Line train car. It was too packed to sit down so she found a small space near the door and grasped onto a pole.


As the train lurched forward, her gaze wandered through the crowd. She tried to catch the eye of a girl scrolling on her phone further down the car, but when this finally occurred the other passenger quickly and nervously averted her eyes.


Suddenly she felt a presence behind her and turned to see a tall young man taking a place directly next to her. There was a noticeable difference in temperature as his body, inches from hers, provided some warmth. Their gazes inadvertently and momentarily met, and he gave a small but intentional smile. 


She looked down and feigned checking something on her phone to buy herself some time to think of something casual but flirty to say. The train stopped briefly and a rush of cold air skimmed the back of her neck as the doors parted. Moments after they were in motion again the line came to her. Her heart was racing now. 


She swiveled her head and frowned, finding the space empty behind her. He had gone as quickly as he had come.





On Demand Date

Don stared down at his phone sitting on the coffee table in front of him. His brow was scrunched in thought. Outside his open window a siren wailed somewhere in the distance. Slowly, he leaned over and used his index finger to scroll through a list of his messages on the dating app Spark. It seemed to be an endless list of people who had ghosted him or never responded to his first message. A feeling of emptiness increased as he went further down.

Then the ad came up again. “Are you looking for🔥HOT-N-READY🔥singles? Try the new On Demand Dating feature NOW⏲,” it read. Don sighed and rolled his eyes at the cheesy marketing. But he couldn’t deny that something about it made him feel more alive than he had in months. The new feature promised to use an algorithm to immediately match him with a compatible person nearby who was also looking for a date at that time. Don hadn’t gone out with a person in real life in months and the thought of such an easy fix was just too hard not to at least give a try.

His mind was made up now, so he punched the little textbox with his finger. A title screen came up with the words “Welcome to On Demand Dating” hovering over a video of attractive-looking twenty-somethings in swimsuits dancing on a beach. Then a payment screen. It was $15.99 per date, paid up front. “Shit,” thought Don. He had already started a Premium subscription with Spark for $29.99 per month three weeks ago so he could send prospective matches “Super Sparks,” which were four times more likely to get their attention than regular likes. But he figured he could easily pay as much for a pizza or a movie, so if this worked out it would be well worth the cost. Plus, the fine print told him that if his date backed out, he would get a $3.25 credit toward his next On Demand Date.

Don’s heart skipped a beat when he found on the next screen a button to begin the matching process. All he had to do was click and the app would instantly match him with someone ready for a date. Eyes wide, he slowly lifted his finger and touched the screen. After only a second or two delay the results came up. “Maria is looking for a date,” a message said next to a profile picture of a young woman. Don clicked on the picture to view her profile and scanned it over. She was thin and average height with bleached blond hair…drank and smoked weed occasionally…spoke English and Spanish… Her description read: “Art student.🎨 I love to paint pictures of people. Message me if you’re not a weirdo😅” Something lit up in Don’s brain. He always liked art and thought back to when he used to paint pictures of his favorite MLB and NHL players in high school when he had extra time on his hands. He felt a sure connection.

Don eagerly selected to accept the date. For a moment he started to grow a little nervous as he realized he might have to start talking to his match now to make plans for the date. He hadn’t actually put much thought into what he would say or where he would propose to go. But to his relief, the app had it all covered. It presented an address of where to meet her, and used a Google Maps integration to show him suggested routes for getting there. The location was on the north side and he didn’t have a car, so he would have to take a bus east and then get on the train to travel north…estimated travel time one hour exactly. The date was at 8 p.m. and it was currently…6:52. Don had no idea what would happen when he got there, but he had no time to think about that. Things had just gotten very real and he had to go now. 

Don rushed to use the bathroom, grab his keys, and put his shoes on. He stopped briefly to look in a mirror and did his best to pat his short brown hair down, which was sticking up in a few different directions. He hesitated for a moment glancing over his outfit, realizing Maria might be dressed nicely, as it was a date. After a few seconds of focused consideration he had a moment of clarity and swapped the Avengers hoodie he was currently wearing for a plain black one. He was good to go and headed out of his apartment building.

Don made good time as he reached the bus station, traveled east through the city, and made it to the CTA station to catch the Red Line headed north. Spark kept him updated on the directions and his estimated arrival time each step of the way, which he was grateful for. Occasionally the app would send him short validating messages like, “Hey hot stuff. 👀 You’re just Maria’s type. Ready to pull some moves?” These helped stave off any sense of insecurity Don might have felt leading up to a normal first date. In fact, he felt too wrapped up in the excitement of the situation to dwell on any nervousness he was feeling. As he sat in the train car, he found himself scrolling back and forth through Maria’s pictures on her profile. He thought about how his last girlfriend had told him when they had broken up how he needed to “work on himself” and “put in more effort” if he was ever going to make a relationship work with someone. Clearly he was willing to go to great lengths for someone else, as evidenced by the money and effort he was putting in to go on his date tonight. Maybe Maria would be the one who would finally see how hard he really tried when it came to dating.

Don was so wrapped up in his thoughts that he may have missed his stop if not for a sudden jangling sound next to his ear that brought him back to reality. He turned to see a homeless man walking by shaking a can of coins. “Change?” the man asked, holding the can out towards Don. Don managed to give a distracted “no” as he looked to see what station the train was coming up to next. The man did not press any further and continued making his way down the train car, holding his can out to other similarly unresponsive passengers with their noses tucked behind their phones. Don realized that the next stop was where he would be getting off and he sprung up to move towards the doors.

It was nearing darkness once Don was off the train and had started the remainder of his journey on foot. Spark guided him through the final quarter mile, which took him into a residential area with closely packed apartment buildings and some houses. Finally, he made it to the block where he was to meet Maria and the directions instructed him to proceed down a dimly lit alley. As he made his way through the dark space lined on either side with dumpsters and backs of apartment buildings he began to feel a little sketched out, and hoped that Maria wasn’t standing out here alone waiting for him. At last, he reached the point in the alley that was closest to where he was supposed to go. He saw that the actual point on the map seemed to be within a big brick apartment building on the right side of the alley. He found a tall metal gate that opened to a narrow passage leading toward the building and he decided to enter to get closer. When he came through the passage, he reached a tiny open space behind the apartment with a patch of grass and a picnic table with a couple of ash trays on it. There was no one in sight.

Before he could think what to do next, Don felt a buzz from his phone. It was a message from Spark: “Smooth moves 😎. You arrived 2 minutes early! Now - ready for your hot date?” Don was more than ready. The anxious anticipation was overwhelming at this point. Then, another payment screen. “Maria is nearby! Send her a message for just $4.99,” the text on the page said. “Shit!” said Don out loud. He scoured the vicinity around him for any sign of Maria, then checked the back door to the apartment building, which was predictably locked. He let out a sigh. He had come this far and couldn’t give up now. Sending that message might just be the only way they could find each other.

Don made the payment. He watched as animated sparks sprung up over the payment screen, which transitioned into a page with a message box. Above it was text that read, “Time to shoot your shot. Let Maria know just how you feel about her.🔥💋 You have 60 seconds to send your message.” Don blinked. The “60” was a countdown, and the amount of time went down with each second that passed. His mind went completely blank, and he searched for any kind of flirty one-liners he knew. 60 seconds turned into 45 seconds, then 30. He remembered he needed to tell Maria where he was so they could find each other. Where exactly was he? 15 seconds. Don panicked and started typing the first words that came to his mind. Two seconds. He pressed send.
 
Maria’s phone vibrated, drawing her attention from her computer screen. She picked the phone up from her desk to take a closer look. There was a notification from Spark that said, “New Potential On Demand Date.” Below it was a message from someone named Don: “Heyy hottie. Im here, in the back. Cant wait to finnly see that hot bod in person”. Maria shifted uncomfortably in her chair. She pressed the option on the screen that said “Decline” and set her phone back down.

She turned her attention back to her computer. On the screen was a digital painting of her parents holding each other close as they shared a dance on their wedding night. She had been working on editing the colors of the vibrant embroidered flowers on her mother’s dress, but couldn’t quite seem to find the right shades. She had been growing frustrated and increasingly distracted, but something about the disruption from her phone made her feel even less focused now. Her eyes wandered off the screen and she gazed out the window into the dark night. 

Suddenly Maria’s phone rang, piercing through the silence of her studio apartment, making her jump. She let out a sigh of relief when she saw it was just her friend Candy calling her on FaceTime and she slid her finger across the screen to accept the call.

“Oh, shit, Candy, it’s just you,” Maria said.

“Umm…who else would I be?” replied Candy, who had her camera pointed up at an awkward angle below her chin and appeared to be calling while riding on the train. Then, “Girl, are you okay?”

“Yeah, sorry. I signed up for this new On Demand Dating thing on Spark and I’ve been getting these creepy messages from guys saying, like, ‘I’m here.’ Like they’re outside my apartment or something. It’s fucking weird.” Maria gave a nervous laugh as she finished her thought.

“They’re probably just scammers,” Candy said. “I’ve heard that app is full of them. Don’t give them any personal information. They’ll steal all your money.”

“No, of course not. You’re probably right. Anyway, what’s up?”

“Oh, I was just calling to ask if you could tell Dr. Gondek, if she asks in class tomorrow, that I have the stomach flu. I’m definitely planning on being sick so I can finish my Art History paper before I go to this concert in the evening.”

“Uh, sure, why not? Hey, speaking of Gondek, have you finished your digital painting yet for that class?”

“Wha—? Oh. Yeah, that’s the other thing I need to do. Maybe tell her I have mono or something, actually. I’m gonna need more time to catch up with things… How is yours going?”

Maria didn’t bother to clarify whether Candy was serious or not about the change in her request. Her attention was focused again on the dissatisfying image on her computer. “Ugh, I don’t know,” she said. “I’m almost finished, but not really happy with it. The colors on a computer screen just aren’t the same as what I’m used to. I kinda just want to break out a canvas and my paint set and just do it the old fashioned way, you know?”

“That’s fair,” Candy said. “I mean I know why they’re having us learn digital methods, since it’s the way things are going, and it’s supposed to be easier, or whatever. But it can be a crude tool, for sure.”  

“Yeah, and hella expensive too,” Maria replied.

She waited for a response, then realized that Candy’s video and audio had started to go in and out. “Candy?” she said. “I’m losing you…”

Then she caught a little bit from Candy: “…didn’t hear what…phone’s gonna die…left my damn charger in Evan’s car.”

“Oh, okay,” Maria said hurriedly. “Catch you later I guess. Maybe we could meet up on campus soon and talk more in per—” Before she could finish her sentence the call closed and she was left looking at the disorganized array of apps on her home screen.

Maria set her phone back down and got up to stretch her legs. She walked over to her window and gazed out. Her view was pretty well obscured by the apartment building next door, but she craned her neck to look down along the space between the buildings. There was no one in sight, though after a moment she thought she heard the metal gate round the back of her building swinging closed. Then a cool breeze blew through the open window, and the visceral feeling of the air against her skin stole her attention and seemed to rejuvenate her in some small way. She turned back towards her desk, tied her bleached blond hair up, and sat back down to give her work another try.

She had just started exploring color variations again when her phone buzzed. It was another notification from Spark: “You’ve used up your last potential On Demand Date. We miss you! Sign up for more dates today so you don’t miss out on eligible singles ready to date in your area.” Maria pressed a button to turn her phone screen back off, then set her eyes on her painting again. She tried a few more shades of red on the floral embroideries in the picture, but it still felt off. The clean digital finish just couldn’t match the rich textures of the dress she knew her mother had worn in real life. She sat back and shrugged. 

Another buzz on her phone. It was Spark once again: “You’ve heard of get-rich-quick schemes, but what about find-love-quick schemes? 💖 Hint: Try On Demand Dating to find out more…😉” This time Maria gave in. She opened the app and clicked on a tab to check her list of messages. As she scrolled through them, her heart sank. As usual, it seemed to be an endless list of brief connections that went nowhere and creepy messages from men that she never responded to. 

Then an ad for On Demand Dating popped up again. “Ready to get off dating apps for good? You could be just one date away from finding ✨THE ONE✨. Try On Demand Dating now.” Maria loathed the relentless marketing Spark used, but she couldn’t deny that the concept of the new feature had excited her more than anything else had in months. Since she had moved off campus to live by herself she had found it much harder to meet people she connected well with to date. And maybe just one date (with someone who wasn’t a scammer or a creep) would be enough to pick her up from the slump she had been feeling in with her life lately. 

Her mind was made up. She moved her thumb over the ad and plunged it into the soft glow of the pixelated screen below.


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December 31, 2021

Best of 2021: A Mini-Review

 


In the interest of putting my recap of the best new movies I’ve watched and music I’ve listened to in 2021 out into the world in the last 24 hours before the year’s end, the following are reviews of my top films and albums released in 2021, all written within one sentence. 


Best New Film

1) Drive My Car

This intimate emotional epic about a grieving theater director who is assigned a driver with a similarly troubled past slowly unravels a story that explores topics of grief, forgiveness, human connection, and the nature of the human condition itself. 

2) Summer of Soul

Much more than a concert film, in this documentary about the 1969 Harlem Cultural Festival the musical performances become an expression of Black struggle, unity, and creativity that resonates as much today as it did at the end of sixties.

3) Zola  

Like the viral Twitter thread it’s based on, this film about a stripper who gets pulled into a fraught and dangerous journey somehow manages to create a funny, poignant, and culturally relevant story out of a dark topic and (mostly) make it work.

4) The Power of the Dog

In an unlikely twist on the western genre, this film presents a subtle tale probing the pitfalls of toxic masculinity and repressed desires, leaving you to put the pieces together in the tragic aftermath. 

5) Homeroom

A year in the life of high school seniors as they navigate the onset of a global pandemic and the unrest following the murder of George Floyd is a fascinating subject for a film, but this documentary does something more, capturing the resilience of the students and their capacity to create change collectively in spite of it all. 


Best New Album

1) Collapsed In Sunbeams by Arlo Parks

In her vibrant and poet debut album, Parks presents a series of stories and confessional narratives that tap into deep pain, while somehow remaining overall uplifting and affirming of the comfort we can take knowing we have others to support us.

2) Solar Power by Lorde

In the pop artist’s most singularly focused effort yet, Lorde explores the tribulations of being young in the age of climate change and consumerism, and finds transcendence in the purity of the natural world. 

3) Things Take Time, Take Time by Courtney Barnett

The Australian indie rock artist pulls back from the spryness and bite of her previous releases to craft a more tender and intimate cycle of songs that focuses on a desire to find patience amid imperfect relationships and life more broadly.

4) Pressure Machine by The Killers

Though The Killers have been crafting songs about life in small town America for years, the band finally went all in on a revealing and spiritually probing concept album based on the lives of people in lead singer Brandon Flowers' childhood home of Nephi, Utah.

5) SOUR by Olivia Rodrigo

Living up to its hype, the teenage singer-songwriter’s hit album is pitch-perfect in its expression of young heartache, and includes some of the year’s catchiest and most iconic songs.   


August 7, 2021

Succession: A Year in a Small American Town



Towards the beginning of the quarantine in early 2020 due to the COVID-19 pandemic, I started a new ritual of going for walks. At first, this was mostly for my mental health. I was spending most of my time cooped up in my one-bedroom apartment alone finishing my Master’s thesis and I needed to get out once in a while. But as the weeks went by, I began to find not only meditation in my walks, but I was also enjoying seeing people go about their business and watching the spring slowly develop into summer. I had an appreciation for the setting I lived in like I never had before in my life.

I felt a desire to document what I saw on my walks, to tell the story I was seeing play out, so I started an experimental project. About once a week around 5 p.m. I would select a random direction and walk for a random amount of time up to 25 minutes. Wherever I stopped I would record observations of what I saw for five minutes. Later on I would write up a short narrative of my observation, part direct description and part stream of thought. I started this project at the beginning of July 2020 and eventually decided to conclude it just before the beginning of July 2021. What follows is my year of observations throughout my hometown of Carbondale, Illinois.

Though a record of a city over the course of a year would be interesting in any given time, it always occurred to me that the year I was doing it would be particularly interesting. When I was starting out, the country was in the throes of two major disruptions. First there was the pandemic ravaging the world with no vaccine in sight. Second was the widespread uprisings for racial justice initiated by the murder of George Floyd and other unarmed Black people at the hands of the police. Noting that Carbondale had been affected by the pandemic just like everywhere else and has its own long history of racial inequality and injustices faced by its Black residents, I wondered if my observations would reflect the turbulence of the times and reveal the disparities that were being laid bare by the events underway. Alternatively, I wondered if I would discover a sense of solace in the quiet moments of life not usually picked up by the headlines. I’ll let you decide which of the two outcomes came through.

I have to note two limitations to the methods I used. First, my descriptions of people are simplistic and not meant to exactly reflect the identities and physicalities of these individuals. In particular, assuming one’s gender is problematic. However, I found the male/female binary an easy way to give a quick description of someone, so this should only be taken as a reflection of what gender the individuals seem to present as. Second, I quickly realized upon starting the project how deficient I am at identifying plants and animals, despite my background in biology. I was able to use the app Seek, which uses an online database to identify organisms you capture on your phone camera, to occasionally pick up the names of plants. But, regrettably, most of my observations include only elementary terms like “trees,” “birds,” and “insects.”

As I am now only a weeks away from my long-planned move to Chicago, I realize that this has been a special project for me. This will document my last year living in the town where I have resided for my whole life thus far. It is my final tribute to the people and ecology of Carbondale, and the systems and cycles that bind them ceaselessly together. 

Note: 

One day when I was out walking last year I happened to come across a printed photograph that had been left sitting on a block of concrete next to the sidewalk. The photo (seen in the image at the beginning of this post), which seemed to be of a man sitting in a playpen holding a young girl, fascinated me. Who were these people? How long ago was it taken, and where were they now? What was the relationship like between the man and the girl? Like the observations in this project, the photo was merely a snapshot representing a thin moment in time. Taken by itself, it entirely lacked context. Yet, I could tell that within that moment was an entire complex world, both materially and in the thoughts and emotions of the people involved. This project is both a testament to those small moments that together form our lives and an attempt to learn from the complex points of the present that so often slip through the cracks, either forgotten or passed over because we ourselves are not present.

One of my goals for this project was to represent the details, the mood, and the action of what I was seeing entirely through words and not visuals, so I did not actively take photos of the scenes I was observing as part of my process. However, some photos from the areas I was observing ended up saved on my phone for one reason or another. For this version that I am posting online, I have added a handful of these photos throughout the writing. Though the observations stand by themselves, these images may help you to visualize the moments I was bearing witness to.

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Sunshine falls upon a greenspace on a college campus. The lawn, trees, and surrounding buildings are enveloped in warm air. An ever-present sound of insects and intermittent chirps of birds can be heard. Breaking through these sounds is the noise of two or three people skateboarding under the breezeway of a long concrete building. The harsh rolling and thumping of their boards against the ground contrast with the gentle sound of life in the more immediate vicinity. The skaters speak to each other occasionally but their words cannot be made out from this distance. A squirrel pops out from some shrubs next to the nearest building and is soon gone again. A light breeze blows through and ruffles the leaves of the trees in the space. Tiny insects move through the beams of sunlight like glowing specs of gold.   

Gray clouds are strewn across one half of the sky, while blue fills the other. A strong breeze moves through a street that divides a residential area and the property of a hospital. Overgrown grass in somebody’s front yard whips back and forth on one side of the street. Cars drive swiftly by every now and then. A larger road not far away has more traffic. A steady and quick sound of insects fills the ambient air. A large black bird suddenly announces itself with a loud caw as it lands on top of the hospital building. A second bird swoops in to join it, but they only perch momentarily before they are once again out of sight. The scene is interrupted by a large FedEx truck bustling loudly through the intersection at the end of the block.   

The sound of sirens from a few blocks away pierces the air of an open field behind a modest white church. As the sound fades the noise of insects and chirping birds returns. Then, the sound of a car door slamming. A Black woman yells out something to three children as they proceed from the vehicle to the front of a small house. They are met in the doorway by an older Black woman. As they greet each other and make their way into the house, cars and a loud motorcycle rumble through the nearby streets. Down the road, on the corner adjacent from the church, a car sits idling in front of a house with its lights on despite the daylight. After several moments, the car turns off and a young man exits. “Hello? Yeah, what’s up?” he says into a phone as he walks to a house across the street. Sunlight beams down across the busy neighborhood.

Gray clouds cast over most of the sky above a busy street with apartments lining each side. A silver car with its lights on drifts down the road, now a light blue one. In between the sounds of cars breaking and engines revving is the steady noise of insects and children speaking somewhere in the distance. Down the road a middle-aged white man is trimming the lawn outside of a rental house with a weed whacker. He finishes up and sets the device in the bed of a pickup truck with a trailer attached carrying a large riding lawn mower, then drives off down the road. As the truck disappears into the distance, a black bird lands on the grass next to an intersection in the direction it drove. In the parking lot of an apartment on the corner, a young Black girl rides a bicycle in a big circle before proceeding down the road on the sidewalk.

The hot sun beats down on a collection of small apartment buildings made of red brick and white siding. A wide road moves through them, ending at a set of two dumpsters, beyond which is a black metal fence enclosing the area with the buildings. A red car near the dumpsters emits several loud beeps, though nobody can be seen in or near the car. Moments later, a young Black man with no shirt walks slowly by, his feet shuffling on the asphalt. There is a subtle noise of insects chirping in the background, overlaid by the calls of birds and inaudible conversations of people out of sight. A white car in the distance reflects a bright ray of sunlight, like a twinkling star. Closer by, a bird flits down on the sidewalk near a tree before flying off again. 

A police station sits under a gray sky, situated oppressively against a narrow road just off a central area of town. Cars drive by each way on the road, some turning at an intersection further down. A black car drives by blasting hip hop music. There is a lull in passing cars and the insects can be heard making their ever present noise more fully. A white pickup truck drives slowly up to the stop sign at the intersection directly in front of the police station, pauses, and drives on. Birds chirp somewhere in the distance. A delivery car for a restaurant passes through. An upper middle-aged man, balding, with a baggy t-shirt and shorts rides slowly by with a blank expression on his face.

Cars pass quickly through an intersection with traffic lights, heading in the singular direction of a one-way street. The intersecting road on one side is closed to traffic as new pavement is in the process of being put down. A Black man on a bike with blue athletic shorts and a grey t-shirt glances down the closed road as he cycles through the intersection. He is followed not long after by an older white man also on a bike. A white car with a city emblem emblazoned on its side suddenly appears driving down the closed road and turns at the intersection in the direction of traffic. A few houses down the closed road an upper-middle-aged white man is mowing the lawn in front of a house. He finishes up the front and moves to the back of the house, the sound of his lawnmower growing distant as he goes.

The distant sound of a train rumbling by, sounding its horn as it goes, emanates throughout a serene residential area filled with cozy one-story houses and lush trees and lawns. Somewhere a car alarm is also going off, but not in this neighborhood. The front door of a house briefly opens to reveal a person who is speaking to someone else out of sight. A black car drives by. Then come two helmet-clad children riding bicycles down the road. They are each around ten years old and white, one with short sandy hair and the other with shoulder-length blond hair. They jovially speak to each other as they go, and one asks the other something about going on the sidewalk. The blond child speeds from the road onto the sidewalk and in unison they turn a corner.   

A cool breeze runs through a shady road that has been closed off for repaving. A car exits a garage at one house on the road and stops in the driveway. A man gets out of the car and walks back into the garage. A stout, middle-aged white woman with a limp shuffles down the sidewalk. She is listening to something on a device as she walks. At this moment it is a confident male voice who says something about USPS documents as the woman passes by. Further down, the closed road meets a busy intersection where cars are passing through, their motors sounding loudly as they go.


The chiming of bells emanates over a college campus from a nearby church. The sound reaches a road near the edge of campus where a bald Black man rides on his bicycle with a large white plastic bag hanging from one handlebar. A car can be seen driving down another road on the other side of a parking lot. Bordering the first road is a field with grass that has been cut short and several trees of varying types, including a few tall oaks. Sounds of different insects fade in and out. One errrrrring sound is particularly loud. In the distance, the sun is beginning to set on a large brick building with a curious brown structure on top that resembles the base of a great pyramid. 

Insects are quickly chirping. A black Jeep rolls by on a narrow residential road followed by a blue car playing hip hop music. Some insects begin to sing louder before abruptly stopping. More cars roll past. There is a sound of a car starting somewhere nearby. The sun is beginning to set, causing the section of road to be mostly shaded by the trees on the west side. An orange car driven by a young white male with his windows down suddenly appears from around the side of a house. It comes to a pause at the end of a gravel driveway before heading off down the road.  

Two large structures envelope a busy parking lot. One is a sports arena with the name “Banterra Center” inscribed in large letters on both a brick and a glass portion of one side of the building. The other, a football stadium marked as “Saluki Stadium” above one entrance. There is a steady stream of fit looking young people walking onto the parking lot and amongst the cars. Several reach vehicles, start up their engines, and drive away. One individual is a Black male with dreadlocks who enters into a white car. The car’s brakes squeal as it backs out of a parking space. Shortly after, the car and the young man are gone.   

The effervescent sounds of insects surround a beige two-story house. The engine of a grey car sitting in the driveway starts up. The car backs out and drives away from the house. A white SUV appears from the opposite direction and parks in the driveway of a brick house next door. A middle-aged white man exits the vehicle. He goes around to the passenger side of the car and opens one of the doors before closing it again with a thud. He is then out of sight as he disappears elsewhere onto the property. The next house down is quiet. It has a For Sale sign standing in the front yard. Yet the noises of the neighborhood persist. A sudden, unidentifiable whooping sound from down the road. A distant dog barking. Muffled voices from inside a residence across the street.

Chirps and whistles of insects emit from a thin stretch of coarsely cut grass between a building and a sidewalk. The creatures cannot be seen but their sound is steady. Beyond the shade of the building is a mostly empty parking lot. A lone black car near the front suddenly jumps to life and drives away. A stillness returns. The scene is quiet again aside from the bugs in the grass and the sounds of others on a nearby hill with some trees. Looming above it all is a clocktower that is brightly lit with the sun that is beginning to set. The structure watches silently over the grass, the parking lot, and beyond that, passing cars making their way about town.

Under scattered clouds resting in an early evening sky a Black woman wearing a bright scarf on her head makes her way across the parking lot next to an apartment building. She comes to a dark green car and begins opening the vehicle’s doors, then pops the hood. She pauses to look down upon the inner workings of the car then begins her task. She briefly works on some parts under the hood before returning to the driver’s seat door. There she retrieves a white plastic bag and takes it around to the passenger seat. She takes something else from here and sets it in the seat behind. Then she is back at the passenger seat, leaning into the car. The woman then takes the plastic bag, circles around the car, and proceeds to a dumpster not far away where she calmly tosses the bag out of sight.   

A single yellow leaf drifts slowly from the sky to land on a quiet residential road in front of a church. Moments after it has settled, a white car blasting hip hop music rolls past and parks in front of a house next to the church. Across the street two young white men are working outside. One is starting a barbeque grill and the other is inspecting a canoe on the grass. The music from the car across the street shuts off. A couple of other cars drive down the road, a red one pulling into a nearby driveway. One of the men is now sitting under an awning in front of the house. He gets back up and walks to a yellow SUV in the driveway and retrieves a black object from inside. Walking back, he shakes the object at the other man, who has now taken the position of sitting under the awning, before heading into the open garage.

A Black woman wearing a bright red sweater and black sweatpants emerges from a two-story apartment building to load up her car. She throws a bag into the silver Chevy and heads back inside. A Black man with a medical mask hanging off one ear soon appears lugging a mattress. The woman returns and together they lift the mattress on top of the car. They each get in the car to leave. The woman drives the car out of the parking lot, one of her hands on the wheel and the other holding the mattress on top of the vehicle. The parking lot is then empty aside from a few spaced out cars and litter spread out across the pavement. The area is shaded by nearby trees, though the building above is illuminated by the golden rays of the setting sun.

The setting sun sheds its rays upon a section of Main Street where cars are busily moving through an intersection. Across the street from a wide building with massive letters across its top reading “THE BANK OF CARBONDALE” is a small auto shop. The modest collection of garages is beginning to fall into shade as the sun above moves behind a cloud, creating a glowing silhouette in the sky. The sounds of passing cars continue to dominate the surroundings as an older white man in a plaid shirt approaches a red pickup truck labeled Holt’s Tire and Auto on the side. He slowly situates himself in the vehicle then starts the engine. The truck begins to roll forward, then breaks to maneuver in a three-point turn. Now turned around, the man propels the truck forward to exit the parking area of the auto shop.


Two young Black individuals walk close together, but not quite side by side, up a long sidewalk leading to three high-rise dormitories. The woman on the left walks in a fairly straight line, while the man on the right drifts back and forth. The man playfully lifts his hands into the air for a moment, as if reaching for a bar or shooting a basketball. He straightens out briefly as the woman hands him something to put in his backpack. They walk past a towering maple tree with lopsided branches that are beginning to burst around the edges with orange leaves. As the two pass out of sight, two young men, one tall and white and the other short and Black, head down the pathway in the opposite direction. They walk close together, conversing casually as they go.

A gray sky hangs above the view through three glass doors at the end of a corridor. Below it are trees, a tan brick building with a red roof, and people and cars calmly making their way to and fro. The occasional sounds of footsteps and opening and closing of doors echoes throughout the corridor. Now, a bald white man wearing a black face mask and a black polo enters the building from a door down the hall and turns a corner. As the hall empties again the ambient sound of rushing air through ventilation channels returns to the fore. Near the entryway close by is a door marked “Custodial Office,” almost unnoticeable to the casual passerby. Just outside it, a single red plastic chair sits silently, unoccupied and forgotten.      

Red lights stream quickly by on the road in front of a bank. A light green car pulls into a parking space in front of the building. A light-skinned Black woman wearing a green hoodie and colorfully patterned capri pants exits from the driver’s side door with her phone to her ear. She paces around the vicinity of the car while she speaks into the device. The car continues to run with its lights on and a man sits waiting in the passenger seat. Cars rush by on an adjacent road behind the bank. Still more crawl around in the parking lot of the bank and at a large grocery store next door. On an island dividing the roads in front and behind the bank a small American flag whips back and forth in the cool wind.      

A collage of yellow, red, orange, and green leaves bursts from the trees standing between a road and a lake. Along the road, a blond man wearing a long sleeve t-shirt and tights sprints by. Moments later, a car passes. The man appears again in the distance turning onto a road heading away from the lake, still in full sprint. Cars continue to pass, their headlights glowing softly against the dim surroundings. In between the sounds of the vehicles, the gentle noise emerges of birds chirping and unknown objects falling to the grass.

A man wearing a backpack strides down a sidewalk past a patch of tall trees. He reaches a large building made up of cube-like structures and passes in front of it. He continues on up the path past more buildings and into the distance. The landscape on which he moves is a college campus in early twilight, dotted with light fixtures illuminating the pathways and parking lots. With the man out of sight, there is an emptiness to the vicinity, challenged only by the nearby sound of skateboards thumping against concrete. Then, like clockwork, a few more people appear meandering about the interlocking pathways, isolated in their own worlds yet connected in the physical one. 

Cars move quickly past, their white lights shining against a darkening blue sky. A large neon sign stands above the road with the words “Eastgate Center” and an insignia with the letters “Eg” glowing in red. The word “Shopping” is blacked out on the sign, not lit up like the rest. A slight cool breeze passes through. Further down the road, a pixelated sign glows in front of a chiropractor clinic in a small building. One at a time, the words flash: “care,” “massage,” “therapy,” “available,” “walk in MWF,” “romans 12:10.”

Lights shine down on a grocery store parking lot. Cars zip by on an adjacent road. A shopping cart sits quietly by itself on the edge of the lot. Insects emit a soft twirring sound somewhere across the road. A small white bus emerges from in front of the store and turns towards the entrance of the lot, passing out of sight as it becomes obscured by the slightly curved surface of the asphalt. A dark figure moves in the shadows on the sidewalk across the street.   

Cars move up a long residential road, their headlights cutting through the darkness. The moon shines through a glaze of clouds above, but most of the light at this particular spot comes from a close by street light. One side of the road is mostly lined by trees, while a row of houses stretches along the other side. In front of one single-story house an American flag flows gently in the breeze, illuminated by a light shining from the ground. A squeaking noise from some animal starts and stops. From somewhere else comes the sound of hammering. The next house up the road has broad front-facing windows, through which the living quarters of its residents are on prominent display, lit up by the lights inside. A bright lamp sits front and center in one window, projecting the warmth of the lives lived within the residence towards the outside world. 

Clouds obscure the dying light on a quiet road. The houses are shrouded in darkness and even the trees form dark silhouettes against the sky. Only a few scattered streetlights puncture the darkness, along with the soft glow of windows on some of the homes. All is still, yet there is palpable activity in the distance. The sounds of cars moving along streets comes from further in town. A siren blazes from an unknown location. A train rumbles through the center of town. The city’s outsize presence mutes the more immediate surroundings. But then, a car seems to be approaching, just around the bend. Yet it never appears.  

Cars stopped briefly at a stoplight lurch forward. The vehicles following them move quickly through the now green light. The light turns yellow, then flashes to red. Cars slow to a stop and two people cross the intersection. A runner with a bright orange cap crosses on the other side then moves diagonally across the road. The cycle of humans in transit continues. The light is green, then red again and cars are stopped. Green. A large truck with a wood chipper in tow passes through the light, along with more cars. There is a lull in traffic as the light turns red again. More cars appear in time to breeze through the intersection at the cue of the green light. A cyclist with a medical mask on and a light glowing from the front of their bike approaches the intersection and crosses as the light turns red once more. 

Within an apartment building with large glass windows in front, the figure of a heavyset Black woman appears walking through a commons area. She is obscured by a pillar as she takes a seat. There is no one else in sight and chairs are set upside down upon the surrounding tables. A car pulls up across the road and backs into a side street. It approaches and comes to rest outside of a small yellow box of an apartment building. A middle-aged Black woman with a red sweater exits the driver’s seat. She turns and calls the name of someone who is sitting in the car to get their attention. Then she continues, “Get that off my seat. Now get out. That’s what you get.” One of the doors to the backseat opens to reveal a Black boy in his teens. A younger Black woman gets out from the other side of the car and she and the boy move towards the front of the building. The boy calls back towards the car excitedly “GET IT MA, RIGHT NOW, BEFORE I…” The family continues to exchange words as the older Black woman opens the door to the back seat. She grabs a small green box, closes the door and joins the others as they head into their modest home. 

Cars drive lazily up to an intersection and pass through, their headlights illuminating the path ahead of them. A melodic chime emanates from a clocktower obscured behind some trees. Then the striking of a bell, “BONG...BONG...BONG...BONG...BONG.” At the corner of the intersection a young Black man runs along the side of an apartment building and enters through a door into a brightly lit room. On the other side of the road an Asian woman with a small pack on her back jogs up the sidewalk. She stops and walks as she approaches the stop sign then jogs across the street. Upon reaching the other side she slows again to a walk. From somewhere else comes the sound of bells bursting into another song. 

A car rolls down a road coming from a dimly lit area with white apartment buildings. It makes a turn at a stop sign and heads towards a busier road. Beyond this, lights illuminate an empty parking lot. In the distance looms the shadowy tower of a power plant. From somewhere close to the vicinity of the white apartment buildings comes the grating sound of something being sawed. The sound is low but hangs like a chill over the air. Another car passes by, this time coming from the busy road and moving towards the apartments. The sawing ceases. Another car passes. A couple of dark figures appear walking near the apartments. The sawing resumes abruptly. The light of the moon is obscured by clouds. 

An umbrella sits in the dirt and grass next to a sidewalk opened and turned upside down. It is a dark shade of blue with a large white figure in the center containing a few small orange shapes on the edges, two of which resemble the webbed feet of a duck. Enveloping the space around the umbrella are sounds of passing cars. The bells in a nearby church are also chiming a melodic tune. Suddenly a large truck carrying a construction digger machine approaches an intersection down the road and blasts a loud horn. In spite of all this, the umbrella sitting in the dirt is unmoved. Darkness is setting in around it, but its stoic figure stands out against the grass and twigs. More cars pass by, yet nobody claims it and it continues to sit.  

An old white woman walks to a house from her car in the driveway. Above her, an exciting scene is playing out. Birds chirp quickly as they fly to and from trees. One sits briefly atop a powerline. It dives suddenly to hover for a moment in front of the glowing bulb of a streetlight, then flies back to the powerline. Reconsidering, it hops down to a lower powerline, but then zips quickly away. More birds fly together in a group high overhead. Others flit in and out of sight around the quiet grouping of houses in the vicinity, all against a backdrop of a deep blue sky melding into a pink and purple horizon. Close to the ground, a crimson-colored bird darts by. 

A squirrel jumps suddenly to the ground from the arm of a tree. The animal has disappeared but birds can be heard chirping somewhere in the surrounding woods. On the edge of the trees, a yellow sign displays the message “WARNING this path is not recommended for use after dark. Please use the Brightway Path after dark.” A concrete and stone path extends beyond the sign and into the dimly lit woods. In the distance a grey building peeks over the top of the trees. A yellow light peers through the branches from somewhere within or beyond the woods. In the opposite direction is a small building with a large bay window revealing a brightly lit room. A young man with a maroon polo shirt and a black face mask opens a glass door next to the window. Then, after a moment, he closes the door and returns to the light.   

A white man with red pants and a grey beanie walks a small dog down a sidewalk. Patches of snow cover the front lawns of houses around them. A man parks a car by an intersection and crosses the street to enter a white home. From somewhere in the distance comes the faint sound of a car alarm going off, though it soon ceases. Cars roll by sporadically among the houses. Suddenly the taillights of the car near the intersection flash, and flash a few more times. The muffled sound of a woman coughing comes from within the white house. A simple red “For Rent” sign stands in the ground outside the home. 

Below a mesh of telephone wires and tree branches and under a dull grey sky, a side street connects two busy one-way roads. Wind chimes sing a gentle song hanging in front of one grey house where a bright purple light shines from a room at the front. Across the street and a little further down, a window at the front of another house reveals a brightly lit bedroom with an assortment of scattered belongings. The sidewalk dips as the street continues on down a small slope. Towards the bottom stands a small house with a large wooden ramp featuring a handicapped parking sign on the front leading up to the front door. A sign in the front lawn says “BE A BLESSING” with several other inspirational phrases below it. Towards the end of the street a few large garbage bins line up along the sidewalk.  


Snow blankets everything around. It continues to add up, coming down in little flakes and blowing sideways. Cars drive slowly over the snow covered roads. Some turn cautiously as they round the corner at an intersection. The only other sign of life is some birds flying far overhead. A snowplow approaching the intersection stops briefly then plows through a red light. While the roads are just clear enough for vehicles to traverse them, everywhere else is another matter. On the corner of the intersection, the steps of a church are utterly buried in snow. The snowplow returns from the opposite direction. This time it stops at the streetlight and the driver reaches out of the door to clear the windshield with his hand. He then continues, moving on past the sign on the corner for the hospital, snow falling into place behind him as he goes. 

An old man with a blue sweater, black cap, and black facemask walks along a path on the edge of a lake. Making his way around, he crosses a wooden footbridge and disappears beyond some trees. Just offshore, abandoned paddle boats float in a covered dock. One lone paddle boat floats lazily on the water near the middle of the lake. Two young men donning medical masks converse as they make their way down the path along the shore, passing the docks and a collection of upturned canoes. Another man jogs down the path and tactfully passes the two walkers. The men pause their conversation as the stranger passes. The quiet scene by the edge of the lake carries on as the sun sets behind the trees further down the path. 

Two Black men with maroon shirts and facemasks walk through a courtyard in between two buildings and enter a door. One of the men stands just inside for several moments fiddling with the door. Both men walk out, speaking to each other as they go. “I’d say if you text them, the keys, might be one in there,” one of them comments. “Alright,” the other replies. The men head off in separate directions. One goes to a door further down, opens and closes it, then walks away from the door to stand for a minute facing away from the building. The sound of bells chiming a song from a church nearby moves through the courtyard. The man walks off, leaving the space empty. Some moments pass as leaves blow gently around on the ground of the courtyard. Above, golden rays of sun caress the tops of the two buildings as the evening sets in. Inside one of the buildings, one of the men passes by behind the glass of the doorways as he moves about his business.

From within the dark recesses below a manhole comes the sound of water gently dripping and flowing. Puddles of water fill small depressions in the pavement around the manhole. The hole sits in the center of a parking lot that is nearly empty aside from several white and red vehicles on one edge. From somewhere beyond the parking lot birds are chirping. Cars are also driving steadily by on the road in front of the lot. A bus lurches through a stop sign and a traffic light, making a blowing noise as it accelerates forward. Overhead are overcast skies and a slight breeze is evident from the whipping back and forth of some marking flags in a nearby patch of grass. The manhole sits amongst its surroundings, indistinct from any other manhole, aside from the marking of a flattened, blue piece of gum on the pavement beside it. 

With a bounce in her step, a middle-aged white woman in a bright red sweater with a bag slung over her back makes her way down the sidewalk. Her eye catches something on the ground that should not be there, and she stops suddenly to pick up a plastic water bottle. She continues on, swinging the bottle as she goes, until she reaches a recycling receptacle conveniently located at the intersection she has to cross the road at. Having deposited the bottle, she begins to jaunt slantways across the busy intersection, disregarding the traffic. Her naive confidence catches up with her, as she breaks into a jog twice to avoid vehicles barreling by. Safely on the other side, she soon comes across a couple other undesirable items polluting the ground and snatches them up. Unphased, the woman carries on down the sidewalk, a bright red speck moving up and down into the distance.

Houses line both sides of a side street that breaks off from a busy one-way road. A tire swing hangs from a tree in a back yard near the beginning of the street. Slowly the street begins to slope up. In front of a green house a collection of yellow daffodils have come into flower.  Across the street, purple flowers dot the lawn of a brown house. Birds chirp from somewhere out of sight. Passing by another side street, an older man can be seen chasing after a young child. Disrupting this view, a white boy with blond hair whips by on a bike, blasting hip hop music. Continuing on, more flowers are attempting to burst forth on the side of the road. Purple buds push into existence on a tree in front of one wooden tiled house. Finally the road comes upon a blue and white geodesic dome house on the corner of another intersecting street. Without so much as a glance, two men walk across the intersection, one with a hood draped over his head.

An old Black man walks along a sidewalk talking on a phone. “Really at Schnucks right now, walking back right now,” he says, then after a pause, “Alright, I’ll be right back.” Lights flicker from the wall of the large red stone building the man is walking by. He passes by the entrance to a parking lot and moves on towards a stoplight where passing cars are slowing to a stop. On the other side of the road a young Black man is waiting. When an opening in the traffic appears, he crosses the street and enters the parking lot in front of the building. He has headphones in and is lost in whatever he is listening to. The young man stops suddenly in his tracks and pulls his phone from his pocket, then continues to walk around the corner of the building. At the end of the parking lot, fumes are emitting from a Burger King building. A large white RV is parked outside. A man with a yellow vest appears around the corner of the red brick building. He grabs an empty shopping cart sitting in the parking lot and leads it away. 

The lone figure of a heavyset woman stands in a parking lot that is mostly empty save for a few cars along the edges. She stands motionless and silent for several moments with a shadow cast over her from the trees on the edge of the pavement. Finally, a white bus approaches and stops. The woman gets on the bus and it drives away. Shortly thereafter, a black car rolls up, breaks, and pulls into a parking space. A man exits from the passenger side door. He pauses to exchange some words with someone in the car, then walks towards a brick building. The car reverses and drives away in the way it came. The parking lot returns to stillness and quiet, except for some birds cawing in the nearby trees. 

Rain is spurting down from sporadic grey clouds onto a road lined with houses and a large brick building. A soft sprinkling sound emanates from the sidewalk as water hits the surface. Several cars and a white bus shuffle by through the mist. A breeze shifts the rain slightly towards the brick building. The rain picks up a smidge then slows to almost a stop only a few seconds later. Then, like a breath, it picks up again, pouring down as hard as ever. A siren somewhere in the distance somehow finds its way through the sound of droplets hitting the ground. On the black asphalt of an entryway to the brick building these drops dance as they ricochet back into the air.

A young Black woman wearing a head wrap walks along the sidewalk of a busy one-way street. AirPods in her ears, she preoccupies herself by taking bites from the food she has using both hands as she walks. She passes by a two-story white house where two young men are perched on the roof of the first story section extending in front of the house. The heavier-set of the two, wearing a red t-shirt, sits against the wall while the other man, wearing a long sleeve white t-shirt, paces around somewhat erratically as they converse. Across the street, a car pulls up alongside the road and a young white man with brown hair exits the vehicle. Simultaneously, another young man crosses the road towards the car and offers a greeting.
“What up?” he asks.
“What’s up, bro?” the other responds as he grabs his things from the car.
“How was Nashville?”
“Huh?”
“How was Nashville?”
The question registers on the second attempt and the two young men continue talking as they walk to the front of a frat house, their voices trailing off as they enter the door.


The view through several thick holly tree branches reveals cars passing to and fro along a road. Besides the loud automobile noises, a bird is singing somewhere and there is a sound of a car door suddenly slamming. If nearby, these cannot be seen for the branches, the crooked arms pointing downwards and their many small dark green leaves tipped with tiny spikes. Now, beyond the branches, a white woman wearing a blue t-shirt and a baseball cap jogs by along the sidewalk. Once she passes, the view becomes empty aside from the backdrop of a three-story brick building in the distance set behind a wide lawn. A slight breeze suddenly passes through, jostling the branches and causing them to gently sway.

The thick blades of a clump of Johnson grass rustle in the breeze on the outside of a chain link fence. The sun glazes the tips of the plants, giving them a white glow. There is a soft sound of church bells, coming from somewhere in a different part of town. On the other side of the fence a roughly cut lawn slopes sharply down to the edge of a mostly empty parking lot. At the front of the lot is a large modern looking brick building with big letters on the front reading “SIU Medicine” next to a hexagonal-shaped logo. Despite the bright sun, the lights above the parking lot hold steady in their illumination for no one.

A white car drives along a quiet residential road, passing through rows of modest one-story houses. The homes are bathed in sunlight with some relief provided by the trees watching over them. Next comes a red car. A Black boy hanging out the back window drums the side of the door as it passes, providing a backing track to the signs of lives lived along the road: worn out mailboxes, alternating carefully trimmed and ragged lawns, another red car passing through an intersection, the stop sign on the corner that leans slightly, a hanging wire attached to a telephone line with a metallic clip, perched birds chirping the tune to their own lives. 

Three black birds walk along the side of a road near a corner where it turns onto another street. They each frequently jolt their heads to the ground to grab up some tiny morsel of food. One flies away and is quickly replaced by another bird. Yet another swoops in and lands in the middle of the road, then hops along to the edge. A car rolls up, slowing as it reaches the corner. The bird, unpanicked, skips a few feet into the grass. Soon all the birds have left but one, who remains hopping around the stop sign on the corner. The straggler flies quickly away, leaving none. Though the space is suddenly empty, the air is filled with the chirps of many more feathered creatures close by. And through the air, specs of white fluff gently float on a journey to bring new life wherever they land.

Outside a quaint, teal one-story house surrounded by numerous decorative plants and flowers the sound of a firetruck siren is blaring. Slowly, the driving whistling and horns fade back into the sounds of the neighborhood – singing birds, a barking dog, and cars passing along the sunny road in front of the house. The house watches it all from its position in the shade of the trees surrounding it. Its view extends to an empty field across the road covered in almost uniform neatly trimmed green grass. The field continues on past a few houses along its side. And continues on along the span of a parking lot next to a big church. From the quiet house along the side of the road it's hard to make out just where it ends.

A space between two apartment buildings provides an area of shade and calmness. One end goes out to the road, across which is another apartment building. From the street, a sidewalk leads up into the space. On one side of this entryway is a tan brick building two stories high. On the other, a three-story red brick building with parallel rows of wide white-bordered windows. The blinds are down behind most of the windows, some of which have broken plastic rungs. The ground between the sidewalk and the red brick building is unevenly covered with vegetation. A huge walnut tree stands in the middle of it all and a few smaller trees are clumped together a bit further down from the entrance by the road. Finally, the space breaks back out into the sunlight and moves into an area with a parking lot and several smaller apartment buildings.

A young white man sits in the driver’s seat of a mail truck, reaching over to sort through the letters and packages he is responsible for on this day. Identifying the ones he needs, he puts them in his bag and gets out the truck. In full uniform, he strides towards a quaint house a little behind where the truck is parked. Stepping up onto the porch, he fills the mailbox. Stepping back down, he proceeds now in the opposite direction, facing the sun. It’s bright and hot but he’s protected by his blue mailman cap. The young man quickly hits the next two houses. Then, he reaches another house and pauses briefly on the porch to sort through his bag and identify the correct items to deliver. He makes a delivery at the next home, then skips two houses to head towards one a little further down. He passes a car where a middle-aged white woman is exiting. The woman, going about her own business, crosses to a house on the other side of the street.

A Black man in a grey sleeveless shirt sits on a concrete ledge outside of a white apartment building holding a small young boy in one arm. A young Black man pops out of the front of another white apartment next door and heads to get in a silver Jeep SUV parked in the driveway of the other apartment building. The man with the child sits calmly smoking a cigarette as the other man passes by. The door opens again and the man swivels his head around to see a young Black woman exit and head off down the sidewalk. He sits with the child and smokes some more. Then, a cube-shaped white car pulls into the parking lot next to the man. A Black woman emerges from the car and excitedly greets the young boy. “Hey little guy!” she says, beaming with a smile, before walking over to receive the child from the man. She hoists him up onto her hip, and the three of them move together towards the collection of homes within the small apartment buildings.

Bright rays of sunshine fall upon a busy strip of road bordering a large grocery store. Across the street is an abandoned red brick building with a large white garage door. Behind it is a concrete parking lot where a single pickup truck sits next to a big white trailer and a retro RV. The grass and the trees next to the road are a deep shade of green, and somewhere birds are singing. In the sky, a long white vapor trail hangs next to the hot sun. One by one, cars appear around the bend down the street and make their way along the road. Their wheels turning swiftly and surely, the sea of cars is endless.